I am feeling accomplished as today I hit my 150th hour all up of swimming. I'd like to think that today started gloriously with me starting out waking up ready to dive into the pool like a torpedo... but that wasn't the case, today started with a sleep in, a headache and a complete desire to do anything other than submerge myself. Fortunately for my goals the appeal of hitting this milestone drove me to pursue it.
I thought I'd be at this point a lot earlier but you know... Covid. I'm still happy with my progress and am finding getting back into the swing of it ok. I did however lose most of my regular swimming buddies over lock down so apart from some guest stars it's mostly been me and my headphones gracing the pool with our presence.
I'm surprised that I have made as much progress as I have to be honest, I'm not great at committing to healthy life change and then following through but hey maybe that's changing. If I am able to accomplish this sort of thing while battling poor self esteem, anxiety, depression and addiction then well... who is to know what is possible?
Saturday, 20 June 2020
Wednesday, 10 June 2020
Part 32: Re-Aquatic
I'm pretty proud of myself, my enthusiasm to pull off a life change has never lasted this long before. Any success I've had in life is normally a knee jerk response to a bad situation as I smash into rock bottom... so I'm glad my head is still in the game.
Finding out that I can fit my old suits again makes me so happy, there has been so much that I have talked myself out of going to because I d believed I couldn't dress nice for the occasion. I've missed parties, dates and even one of my oldest friend's wedding because I didn't feel like I could look the part. This gives me a hell of a lot more confidence even if I don't wear em frequently having that option is really empowering.
Speaking of empowering, I'm coming out of the depression swamp. I can tell this by taking more care of myself and my surroundings. I'm really loving changing the way I see myself and the face I put on for the world. I'm hitting my stride in my self discovery and loving it.
With the hydrotherapy pool back up and running it feels good to be hitting my stride once more. I'm not yet able to do as much as I was prior to lockdown but that is to be expected. I'm damn tired from my efforts but I'm so ready for this even if I have to crawl over the finish line.
Finding out that I can fit my old suits again makes me so happy, there has been so much that I have talked myself out of going to because I d believed I couldn't dress nice for the occasion. I've missed parties, dates and even one of my oldest friend's wedding because I didn't feel like I could look the part. This gives me a hell of a lot more confidence even if I don't wear em frequently having that option is really empowering.
Speaking of empowering, I'm coming out of the depression swamp. I can tell this by taking more care of myself and my surroundings. I'm really loving changing the way I see myself and the face I put on for the world. I'm hitting my stride in my self discovery and loving it.
With the hydrotherapy pool back up and running it feels good to be hitting my stride once more. I'm not yet able to do as much as I was prior to lockdown but that is to be expected. I'm damn tired from my efforts but I'm so ready for this even if I have to crawl over the finish line.
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