When I was a kid I was the type to sit and read while all the other kids ran around playing games or adventuring, little did I know I was beginning lifelong habits which were unhealthy. As I grew up I remained very much a quiet and not very energetic boy. Having to break these habits in my adult life isn't easy especially finding exercise hard and sometimes painful.
Weirdly enough its little tiny things that make working out easier for someone that has historically hated all physical activity, I have found music to be an amazing game changer for me, When I'm at the gym and I'm listening to a great playlist I work harder and am more inclined to stay on a machine because the beautiful howling of my favorite band eggs me on. I would go nowhere without music. It is the very lifeblood of my workout. If you are having trouble find a artist that makes you want to dance and you are heading in the right direction.
I have also found out I'm not like my mother who can go for a walk for noooooo reason what so ever, I am much more determined to get out and about for something I can kid myself into thinking is something that needs to be done, such as buying a singular item from somewhere or picking something up for a flatmate. That way it seems like something that isn't completely pointless and I have achieved something however tiny.
When I was about twenty I started going for walks to the beach to pick up a single shell each time, that way I had a small collection of shells at home to reflect my progress. I found it helped to have a representation of the effort I had put in, especially on the days I could see no physical change I always had my little shell collection.
To me exercise was always a chore so when you can combine your interests with exercise you have created something awesome. For some people its rollerblading, for others its mountain climbing... but for me anything that has a historical combat element appeals to me. I think its my nerdery shining through but things like sword fghting, archery and yes even sumo wrestling appeal to me. If I am enjoying it I can pretend it isn't hard and stick it out when I really want to collapse on the floor!
This is what works for me, but maybe that's because I'm a tad bit loopy! Its vital I learn to like exercise and I know as it gets easier and easier it will be sooooo much more pleasant. Until then I just have to keep at it!
Eli Nelson
PS: I made it through to the next stage for the documentary on bullying, later on this month I'm going to be filmed for it which is very awesome!!! I also plan to write a little more on the subject beforehand so yeah! That's pretty awesome!!!
Thursday, 14 August 2014
Wednesday, 6 August 2014
Part 25: Rainbows as seen from space.
Argh, been a little while. So true to my word I have been seeking some help to figure out whats going on with me lately, as my enthusiasm has been at an all time low. It turns out I have depression and anxiety, but I had been expecting that I haven't been having a easy time of things. I'm don't view this as a hurdle or something particularly upsetting as I know its just another motivation to get from where I am... to where I need to be. I think I can do it as each and every step in any direction seems to be the right move at this point.
A wise woman once said to me, treat the gym like your job. I ignored her when she first said it because I was stuck in the ways of "old Eli" not the "new Eli" I'm trying to be. After reflection I realized that she was so right. The gym needed to be an obligation a everyday or almost everyday kind of thing. I have been to the gym five times in the last week and by Odin's raven I am sore. I can feel new muscles singing out underneath my skin informing me that they are merely forgotten and not gone. They ache. I could barely walk after this new torture my fitness coach Sarah though up... something called a "squat" I didn't even do many of them but I can tell they hate me with the passion of a thousand dying suns.
I have started tackling the big hurdle of figuring out how I started overeating and why I keep it up for twenty years even when it started killing my social life, relationships and finally my body. I must figure out how I got to that horrible apathetic place so I can make sure I never find myself there again. The start of combating this is meeting with a dietitian and figuring out when I'm eating if I'm actually hungry or not, I think most of the time I eat now out of habit or boredom. That has to stop. I now have to record a hunger level before I eat anything, between one and ten, one being empty and ten being so full I fee sick. I'll be interested to see how challenging myself before I eat something works.
Exciting news, I just had an interview about being in a documentary about bullying, I talked to the interviewer for a very long time about all sorts of things and its scary how much I hadn't thought about in some time. I'm going to be so excited if I do make it into the documentary but either way I am happy just knowing my blog i reaching sooooo many different people. Oh to the people who share my blog, it was found due to one of you! So thanks! I wasn't going to talk about it until I know for sure but oh well! I feel like I have a fair bit to say on the issue being bullied all throughout school in one form or another. It would be interesting to try and help other people in the exact same situation I was in.
So yeah some pretty big news, Its bloody nice to have some good news mixed in with some rather crappy last few weeks. Its good that I am reinforcing my support network and progressing on the frequency of "body breaking" exercise, I only wish I had the power to defeat the evil that is bread. Some foes shall live to be defeated another day however! Today of all days I feel like I am embracing every emotion in the spectrum, bouncing from one thing to the next like a little kid in a coffee jar. I am going to embrace the fact that I feel any part of the emotion rainbow and channel that emotion to my purpose. Anger meets a punching bag tonight, sadness meets the guitar of a thousand whirling punk sounds as my legs begin to hate the rowing machine. Oh and happiness... well there's no harm in singing and dancing along to your favorite music when the night gets dark and the gaslights light up.
Eli Nelson
A wise woman once said to me, treat the gym like your job. I ignored her when she first said it because I was stuck in the ways of "old Eli" not the "new Eli" I'm trying to be. After reflection I realized that she was so right. The gym needed to be an obligation a everyday or almost everyday kind of thing. I have been to the gym five times in the last week and by Odin's raven I am sore. I can feel new muscles singing out underneath my skin informing me that they are merely forgotten and not gone. They ache. I could barely walk after this new torture my fitness coach Sarah though up... something called a "squat" I didn't even do many of them but I can tell they hate me with the passion of a thousand dying suns.
I have started tackling the big hurdle of figuring out how I started overeating and why I keep it up for twenty years even when it started killing my social life, relationships and finally my body. I must figure out how I got to that horrible apathetic place so I can make sure I never find myself there again. The start of combating this is meeting with a dietitian and figuring out when I'm eating if I'm actually hungry or not, I think most of the time I eat now out of habit or boredom. That has to stop. I now have to record a hunger level before I eat anything, between one and ten, one being empty and ten being so full I fee sick. I'll be interested to see how challenging myself before I eat something works.
Exciting news, I just had an interview about being in a documentary about bullying, I talked to the interviewer for a very long time about all sorts of things and its scary how much I hadn't thought about in some time. I'm going to be so excited if I do make it into the documentary but either way I am happy just knowing my blog i reaching sooooo many different people. Oh to the people who share my blog, it was found due to one of you! So thanks! I wasn't going to talk about it until I know for sure but oh well! I feel like I have a fair bit to say on the issue being bullied all throughout school in one form or another. It would be interesting to try and help other people in the exact same situation I was in.
So yeah some pretty big news, Its bloody nice to have some good news mixed in with some rather crappy last few weeks. Its good that I am reinforcing my support network and progressing on the frequency of "body breaking" exercise, I only wish I had the power to defeat the evil that is bread. Some foes shall live to be defeated another day however! Today of all days I feel like I am embracing every emotion in the spectrum, bouncing from one thing to the next like a little kid in a coffee jar. I am going to embrace the fact that I feel any part of the emotion rainbow and channel that emotion to my purpose. Anger meets a punching bag tonight, sadness meets the guitar of a thousand whirling punk sounds as my legs begin to hate the rowing machine. Oh and happiness... well there's no harm in singing and dancing along to your favorite music when the night gets dark and the gaslights light up.
Eli Nelson
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